Oh my gawd.

I had a horrible night with a fever of 101.8 and chills and joint aches.

Since when does medicine make you feel worse??

Anyway I slept on and off and was praying to just die because I felt so shitty. I layed there crying and thinking when I get better I'll never get sick again.

I'm going to call off the next two days, I can foresee this now, there is no way I could work like how I am.

Anyway medications have way to many side effects, what the fuck, I don't even feel better.

I don't know if I put in here ... I confronted my sister about the whole ... "I heard you" thing and I ended up crying and sobbing about it and walking away from her.

That was Sunday and I'm wondering if that had a role to play in my sickness as I did have a SNOT fest with my sobbing.

Regardless I pray to get better soon cause I feel like I wish I were dead or in a coma so I wouldn't have to feel this bad ... this achy/joint pain (side effect from pill) is killer. I can take fevers, but this shit has got to stop.

So is this how old people feel? I feel like this is a quality of life issue, please pull my plug and take out my feeding tube. Ack ...

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pet ramps